A couple months ago, my son and I traveled to a university hospital to complete some testing and meet with some doctors from one of the medical specialty clinics. The day started off pretty uneventfully, until the head doctor walked into our room with her entourage of doctors-in-training. The doctor began by smiling at me and my son, than she said something that had my eyes instantly fill with tears.

She told me she had been to Eastern Europe and toured some of the orphanages and that my husband and I were saints. By adopting our son, we had likely saved his life and she wanted to commend us. If we had not adopted him he would probably have died.

The mere thought of my son dying, alone and scared in an orphanage instantly invoked two emotions. The first was extreme sadness at the thought of losing my precious son and secondly, anger at the insensitivity of this doctor.  Seriously – she was going to commend me for being a saint – lift herself up in front of her students, like she was some expert when it came to medical care in Eastern Europe and she’d admitted to only visiting a couple orphanages on ONE visit.

My son was sitting across from her. And he was suddenly extremely anxious, pale, scared, and very concerned – because all he heard was he would’ve died if he had not been adopted. He heard that his parents saved his life and suddenly he was preoccupied with the thought of death. “I would’ve DIED”… was what he heard. It didn’t take much to go to the next step – mom, does that mean I’m going to die?

Warrior Moms fighting to heal their childrenAnd it was a difficult position for me to be in. What should I say to the doctor? I was battling sadness, anger, and sheer incredibility that she would say this in front of him. Then to add insult to injury, when I told tell her that we really shouldn’t continue in this vein, she indicated that he didn’t understand what we were talking about. WHAT!!! Can you hear my Warrior Mom roar?

I was flabbergasted and furious! Our son has been tested at other facilities and previously shown an above average IQ and a photographic memory. And she tried to tell me that in their testing they had not found the same thing and she did not believe he understood what she was saying. Therefore the testing since the age of 3 at various other highly regarded institutions must be incorrect. Furthermore, the testers at this university hospital repeatedly stated that our son was ill on the day they tested him and they did not feel they got the best out of him. Aghhhh!

So how do you prevent something like this from happening to you and your child? We’ve learned the hard way that people understand things better when there is a story to tell. So feel free to tell this story, our story- about a doctor that insisted on talking negatively about a child and scaring him so much that he talked incessantly about dying and for more than three weeks after the meeting and kept asking, “What did the doctor mean by you saved my life?”

Here are three things that I believe you can say to a doctor, prior to meeting, that are in the best interest of your child.

  1. Doctor, please, try to review in advance any information I’ve painstakingly written down for you. And doctor, when we sit down to discuss the information, please make it possible for me to meet with you alone and then with my child. It’s really important that you DO NOT review behavioral issues in front of my child. This is not a good practice as it can lead to further regressions and issues. Please review the information I’ve spent hours working on and then sit down with me, the parent, privately.
  2. I’m not a saint. I’m a parent that has a sick child. I’m here for help and answers. Please don’t grand-stand in front of your medical students and try to pretend that you are empathetic and understand what I’m going through. Unless you have a complex (special needs) child and have been living with that child, dealing with numerous issues day and night for more than 11 years, you don’t know what it’s like to be me. Visiting an orphanage in Eastern Europe and seeing the quality of care does not give you the right to judge me or my child and to make grandiose statements. Instead, PLEASE tell me that you’re aware of issues/problems with medical care and you are happy to see HOW our family is helping our child and you are here to be part of the solution. Please don’t become part of the problem by going on about what a saint we are for adopting our child. We’re not saints. We’re tired parents that have spent a ton of money and traveled to 17 states to get our kid better. I want to listen to you and get good information from you. When you start out in the way you did, dear doctor, you lose credibility and reinforce why I have trouble finding good doctors to help us.
  3. Don’t disparage what my team of doctors are doing or have told me to do to help my child. If you disagree, think of a better way to say you disagree other than tell me there are unscrupulous doctors/therapists that see you coming and want your money. Yes there are. But give me some credit. JUST because another institution is not doing something that is cutting edge and done by only three locations in the USA, do not tell me that what they are doing is not worth it. Consider that the parent sitting in front of you has not only spent a ton of money to get their child to this point, but they’ve also spend hour upon hour doing research. And yes, if I were a few years younger I would DEFINITELY be going to school to get my official M.D.

And finally, when I come into your office -look at my entire child. He is smart, funny, curious, imaginative, and one of the fastest runners in the 6th grade. Look at him, see his sweet smile, his cocky grin. Be present!

Our family has been to hell and back and we’re still going down that road as we work to recover our child. We’re not done, but until we are done, we will be researching and interviewing a lot of doctors. If you’re good enough to make the team, then you’ve earned our respect and we will expect you to play nice with others. Meaning, do some research and don’t get lazy and just sit back on what you learned last year or the year before. I’m a mom. I got my doctorate from Google.  I spend countless hours every day, week, month and year learning EVERYTHING  there is to know about my son’s illness. When you ask who his primary care provider is, you’re looking at her – me – his mom (and dad too). We know more than you do about our son and his day-to-day needs and issues. If you’re good enough to make the team, you are someone that we trust and someone that we want to listen to.

So please listen with your ears and your heart. When I bring my son to see you, I’m bringing my precious child. We’re on a schedule. We have to squeeze out as much joy and fun as we can, but we also have to accomplish as much as we can during the next 5-6 years to get him as well as possible. So help us – work with us, let’s make sure we’re on the same team.

Please share with other warrior moms.

2 Comments

  1. Reply Caryn

    That’s my friend, you leave no stone un-turned. I can only imagine the look on your face and I’m so glad you “talked” with the doctor to explain that it was absolutely not appropriate to go on in front of your son. Good job Warrior Mama!!!

  2. Reply Genevieve

    This happened to our daughter at a psychiatrist appointment who she thought wasn’t listening, but she was! If they want to discuss behaviors, lets leave the child in the waiting room – duh!! My daughter would get tense and moody after. It seems now that she has a better psychiatrist, she isn’t having meltdowns during or after the visit.

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